Coming Out Of My Shell, My Eternal Comma,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Ignore the second part of the heading.
Makes absolutely no sense at all.

Coming out of my shell, for the first time in 3 weeks,
Been blog surfing again,
trying to catch up on events etcetera.

And I've I've just realized something,
ARE 15 Year Olds Really That Immature?
Apart from their garish blogs,
that contain little or no content
or the personalities that hang out there,
the 'popular crowd'.

Which coincidentally, my peers and my teachers
think I'm a part of, which I'm not.

And one just has to sit back and think,
Ye Gods, what am I exposing myself to,
by simply turning up for my education every day?
The mind numbing syllabus, and system which
I'm exposed to as a student.

From intellectuals, who've accomplished nothing,
by spending a decent part of their lives mugging
for their studies, memorizing little facts
and details which could be obtained easily enough
by referring to the library or the internet.

The mind numbing stupidity of people
trying to make up for their broken lives,
the pathetic efforts of people faced with reality,
instead, seeking to disillusion themselves by
making believe that their pathetic existence is worth more
than it actually is.

All this is simple fact in my living environment
and yet people question why I'm such a delinquent.
My superiors question my success even though I appear
to be such a delinquent. Eccentric, in has non-conforming ways.

And then, nothing.
For I can do nothing to change things,
simply because I have too much of a reputation already.
A reputation for stirring things, doing things non-traditionally,
and the dinosaurs are unhappy.

The people sitting on their butts,
dreaming of days long past will not accept
any input.

And I think to myself,
how immature most of my peers are.
And why I haven't simply murdered the ones
who I don't think deserve life and the privilege of wasting my time.

And than I it hits me.
The sudden realization,
I'm conforming.

Not for the school,
not for a moral code that others try to push on me,
slowly but surely I've began a conformist life style,
restricted by the law. And slowly being changed by society.

The terrible degradation and erosion of my own values,
ever present, no matter how amoral one might think my to be.
This bites.
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Note:
Amazing, the things you write while having a headache.
Can't be blamed though, this is the first time I've had more than 6 hours
of sleep for a long time. (2 weeks to be exact.)

P.S.:
Can any one think of any reasoning one might have
in naming an organization/group 'Eternal Comma'.
Can any one think of any significance of the name 'Eternal Comma',
apart from the fact that you're pretentious and trying to sound smart.

I don't know. 'Eternal Comma' simply makes no sense and if you're
trying to sound smart, it simply exposes you to how dumb you are.
Input anyone? Please?
Gimme, gimme.