Aloha.

Somebody's been looking through my archives. Identify yourself! You're going to start me obsessing again, mysterious stranger.

Regret.

My greatest personal failing would have to be my complete impotence around people whom I'm attracted to.

I have yet to successfully woo another individual whom I have had a very strong attraction for. It is miserable.

And although it might sound like I'm boasting, I attract all the wrong kinds of people. Because mostly, when people are attracted to me, I automatically have a poorer impression of them. I think I feel the need to justify personal relationships, before I fully embrace them.

It's just the way it is.

I wish I knew how to actively attract/woo people. It is a skill that I'm sorely lacking.

Because.

Because my self-worth is tied so strongly to external factors-chief among them, people. It is good to know that there are parts of my self that make my whole desirable. It is a good feeling and it makes this miserable, passionless existence worthwhile.

Well, bearable at the very least.

She don't use jelly.

I Am The Dot - Formaldehyde (Official) from Stephanie Cafarella on Vimeo.
And she has a perfect set of teeth. Which is beautiful and rare, and oh so fantastic. I wish I had more things like that in my life.

But, then again, if they were less rare, the experience would be less profound and not so special anymore.

I am thankful that I still derive joy from such, things.
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It has been such a long time since I've posted music and it is because I haven't had any new music to post. The video could've been better, but the song is oh, so lovely.

Mojo.

Hello, I think I'm in love with Elizabeth Cochrane. Which is a bit creepy, but oh boy! What a woman. I would be so fortunate if I ever had the privilege of befriending half her modern day equivalent.


Oh boy, oh boy!

It's been such a long time since I had such a boy-crush.

I am an office monkey.

So far, I think I've been balancing work, school and work pretty well. It is good to be kept busy. Staying busy has allowed me to form a sort of easy peace with myself.

I only wish I spent more time at the restaurant/bar then as a student and office monkey. I get very fidgety when I have to stay seated for copious amounts of time; I'd much rather be out and about interacting with people.