Things we said today.

Perhaps it is good that I am such a hard person to get along with. I am extremely critical and selective with the people whom I allow myself to associate with, and it shows. I have very, very few friends.

I can number my good friends with one hand and casual ones, perhaps with two pairs.

Thankfully, it is pleasing that the people whom I do call friends are of extremely high calibre. I mean, it is amazing when after resisting all attempts to communicate for nearly a year, we manage to get along as if no time has passed since our last encounter.

Het is super fantastisch! Do you know of people who after managing to be complete strangers for more than a year, agree immediately for an impromptu late night movie to catch up and shoot shit.

And yes, while I happen to be such an amazing ass to all my friends-disappearing and remaining uncontactable for weeks and months, nearly all of the work just as hard to ensure that we never fall out of contact.

It's crazy and wonderful at the same time, because it is foolish to put in so much effort with people who do not reciprocate. At the same time, knowing there are such people out there, fills me with such feelings of mushy warmth and fuzziness and fills me with the teeniest bit of hope for the human race.

It is a special kind of love that is reserved for these people, who are an oasis in such a terrible, terrible wasteland of dip shits, that ensures my sanity and relegates this horribly, miserable place of ones and zeros to a more minor part of my life.


Thankfully, the reality is much better than the fantasy, which is a lot better than many. And that, is awesome!