The week in a nutshell.

It's the kind of week where I'm here, but not really because I am ignoring people who I cannot see and touch and just getting by. It's a weird kind of dissociative state that I do not fully understand and I hope that it never happens again because it's not healthy for relationships. On a side note, this song has been playing over and over in my head.

Fire! Fire!

Such tenacity and verve! What an utter waste of space for an entirely pointless exercise of might or power however you might however you might construe my meaning! An extremely wasteful and redundant display of vocabulary and punctuation in a deceitful attempt to colour prose!

It doesn't help that I am completely unrepentant when it comes time to stir the passions and remain as awkwardly factual as possible. It doesn't help that that kind of drive stems from indignance and condescension coupled with the seductive possibility of an intense joust and all the parry and thrusting that comes along with such a contest. Ultimately, full of sound and fury signifying nothing. Except, perhaps the suicidal smashing of one's head against a wall.

You know, I think all that unbridled energy has finally spent itself. More significant and productive things await! I cannot afford to chain myself to the inter web like I used to. Like I used to have an audience, damnit! Now it's just an idiots' tale, you know-cue overused Macbeth reference once again.

Like, intense. But not really.

I miss being powerful. Or at the very least the illusion of power and the ability to change things that I do not like. Also, I miss the scent of woman. You explain that it's all science and hormones flirting with each other. Honestly, them pheromones drive me nuts.

I guess this is the sort of thing that if it was a dialogue I'd end off with a lame laugh which peters off into a sigh. Which, would signify how hopeless the status quo is.